To talk of many things:
Of shoes–and ships–and sealing-wax–
Of cabbages–and kings–
And why the sea is boiling hot–
And whether pigs have wings.
Okay, no idea where Alice Through the Looking Glass came from. Just popped into my head randomly so we’re going with it!
Well, my room is getting bare. Everything has been taken off the walls, most of my life is packed into bloxes aside form basic necessities I may need over the next couple of weeks. My car has been cleaned and vacuumed, boxes packed into that will fit, and now I am sitting with a cup of tea enjoying the silence while my daughter plays with her new Disney barbies.
It’s beginning to hit me hard that for the first time in her life, she will be away from me frequently and for extended periods of time. Her father has joint-custody and wants her every other 6 weeks, and as of right now I have no choice but to agree. That means every 6 weeks I will be driving 10 hours to “meet in the middle” to pick her up/drop her off, then 10 hours back home. The driving doesn’t bother me really. I need to learn to become more comfortable behind the wheel of a vehicle anyhow.
However, being without her that long is going to really mess with me emotionally. I’ve spent her whole life, aside from about a year where I had no choice, being a stay at home mother. I’ve catered to her needs daily, and always been there if she was sick, hurt, or just needed mommy. Now I can still do those things, but from behind a computer or phone screen. I will video chat with her every day, but in the end, it still is not even close to the same. I cannot feel her, hug her, or give her kisses. She’s not even old enough to understand why it has to be this way.
It upsets me even more because her father is merely doing this out of spite, as when she is with him now, living in the same city, he yells at her and ignores her constantly. I don’t expect it to be any better once I leave either. As parents, it is our duty to care for our children. To love and cherish them, and to teach them how to be productive members of society once they come of age. We are to do this, no matter how we might feel about our child’s other parent. It is going to be a hell of a rough transition, but thankfully I will have everything set up for her once we move, and give her something fun and exciting to come home to. I’ve told myself to always look at he silver lining, and think about how amazing I’ll be able to make her room for when she gets to see it!
Sights To See
Aside from the worrying about Emma, I am warming up to the moving idea quickly. The more something negative or frustrating happens here, the more moving away sounds desirable. I have spent about 10 years of my life in this city, and it’s been about 7 years too long, if you ask me! Want to know what I am looking forward to the most about Columbus? A BOOKSTORE! A REAL BOOKSTORE!
Where I live currently there is very little to do, despite being a relatively decent sized city(over 100K population). Of course where I am moving to the census in 2010 said there were about 8 times that amount. I’d assume there’s about 900K-1 million people in the city as of now, possibly more. Therefore of course there is more demand for things like bookstores. Also, they have one of the highest ranking zoos/aquariums in the United States, and while I don’t particularly enjoy zoos(I always feel a bit sad for the animals) this is something Emma will love. I also read up on a few amusement parks near where I’ll be living, and they too are very highly recommended.
The city parks are what I’ll be looking forward to most after having a bookstore nearby. I love to go read in parks, and since I won’t be having to deal with 100+ degree weather any longer, I will possibly be able to actually enjoy summers! that is something I simply cannot wait for! David was completely amazing while packing up the top of the closet and found my Kindle Paperwhite that I thought was gone forever to abyss where socks disappear to. So I’m charging it and whatnot right now! I hope all of my books are still there, but if not it’s not a total loss. Most of them were classic literature books that were free on the kindle store.
Also I’ve heard the gardens are to die for they’re so beautiful. I’ll have to take some photos, because after getting some stuff unpacked, I told David probably the second or third day we’re there I want him to take me to sight see. He’s from Columbus so he should be able to help me find some really pretty places! As a plus it might help with my depression from being separated from Emma too. Not to mention I’ll already know the best places to take her once I pick her up!
Well, one downside is definitely the cost associated with moving! We were going to rent a moving truck and pull my car behind, but they wanted 850 for the truck and another 150 for the toy dolly for my car. I said no thank you. Definitely not. I will not pay $1100 to move PLUS the about $600 in gas the truck would cost me. Nah, bruh, I’m good. So as silly as it sounds we are going to install a pull on my little 2013 Hyundai Accent(which surprisingly can tow up to 2000 lbs apparently o.O) and pull a small trailer with it. I really don’t ave a lot of stuff, and we wouldn’t be taking a trailer at all except the two pieces of furniture I do own are my bed and desk, which no matter how good at TETRIS I might be, it’s not fitting in my tiny car bahaha. So right now that’s the plan, and just cover the stuff on the little trailer with one of those plastic tarp things in case it rains or whatever. I’d much rather pay about $400 plus gas in my own car than around $1500-$1600 for a moving van when I don’t even really need all that space in the first place.
Have you guys ever moved as adults? If so, how did you handle everything?